Journey to Yoga

Last time I wrote, I mentioned negative-self talk and proposed a challenge to change that. I had no idea how difficult it was to change. I am constantly going to challenge myself with my negative self-talk and I think most people are more negative about themselves than others. I realized that I had to give myself a little love and not think so negative about myself. I will continue to challenge my thoughts. 

I am on week three of the healing process from my septoplasty. I can breathe so much better! What is even better than that is being able to workout again. I started a journey of yoga to enhance flexibility and throw in a little meditation. I was happy to step out onto the mat today and give all could to that moment. More than anything, I felt that yoga has enhanced my outlook on life. I am more thankful for the movements of my body and grateful for the breathe of life. For some reason I always thought yoga was for ex-dancers wanting to show off their flexibility. Boy was I wrong. I will always hit the weights and treadmill like I did before, but yoga is something special. It's all mine. I move to feel alive and well, with weights there is always that competition. I love it for that, but I just feel like I have finally found a great balance in my fitness training. 

A Negative Mind Will Never Give You A Positive Life

Many thoughts about life have given me a need to change perspective. Many of the people who have made a great influence in my life have always had a positive outlook on life. Is this skill learned or just part of their personality? I am constantly catching myself with negative self thoughts that really burden my potential for happiness. I honestly think that this "happy horse shit"  ( I often refer when I know I am lacking in this perspective) is that these people are genuinely lucky to be advanced in such a trade. Last week I had a lot of time to think after having a septoplasty and being confined to a lazy boy at a 45 degree angle, so I woke up and watched the sunrise and did the mind-body bridging that I discussed earlier. I felt peace as I took in all that mother nature had to offer. I remember specifically questioning my purpose for living in the here and now. I want to make something of myself and be proud of who I am becoming and what I am looking forward to.

For the unlucky ones, like myself, I plan to throw out a challenge that I can't help but accept. To find purpose, one needs to look inside and ask what needs to change in order to achieve life-long goals or dreams. For me, it all comes back to my negative self-talk. I need to start thinking more positively about others and strive to let go of the negativity. I challenge myself for 1 week to pay attention to my thoughts and for every negative thought I have to replace it with a positive statement. My mind may be a train wreck waiting to happen, but I plan to really commit to this and see how my life changes. If you are reading this, I challenge you to do the same and let me know how this affects your life.

BB

Purpose of Blog and Mind-Body Bridging

Many reasons may entice a person so right a blog and I have hesitated to do so for a tremendous amount of time. I love to write and I want this blog for nothing but for per selfish reason. I do not want this blog to be similar to anyone elses, which I felt like I had to rise to a certain standard. I am excited to get going and discover myself in the process. 

I chose the title of my blog, Esthetic Intrepidity because I wanted my title to show who I want to be. I want to be bold but artistic. I want to go through a journey to learn more about myself while becoming more bold and beautiful in my own skin. I am going to start be doing things that I have never done, while working on things that I have wanted to change.

For starters, I started this therapy technique called, Mind-Body Bridging. Basically, I understand it to be a technique that brings everything to the present and to the here-and-now. I use it mostly for when I am feeling anxious or having a hard time falling asleep. It looks a little like this; I will be driving to the store and I will turn off the radio and I will go through a self dialogue and name things that are happening in the present. I would describe how the steering wheel feels in my hand, or the tires on the road. I would even go through each body part of my body and explain to myself what I was doing. I was putting my foot on the gas pedal... then the break and so forth. Yes, I have done this out loud, because my mind would not want to just focus on the present. I would always be thinking about what was next on my check list and the things that we bothering me. I plan to do more research, but the little I've done and just tried, has exponentially reduced my anxiety and help me feel calm and peaceful.